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What Do You Do?

What do you do when something occupies too much of your time, too much of the space in your already overthinking mind?

What do you do when things that happen are absolutely out of your control?

What do you do when there are only negative thoughts, and more destructive thoughts making home in your heart and mind?

Needless to say the first suggestion would be to talk things out, to share your woes and doubts with people who care about you.

You pray and hope, and calm your mind but those little evil people are trapped within you.

Then comes the idea of writing your feelings down, word by word. Writers often tend to this technique to cure the ache.

But you see, when desperation kicks in, you go as far as writing your frame of mind and even burning the sheet down to mere ashes; repeatedly!

What do you do when despite all the efforts, those thoughts and feelings stick with you?

What do you do when your thoughts are absolutely out of control? When those thoughts, pains you like a piercing needle, slowly seeping blood out?

What do you do when you can take no more?

What do you do when nothing helps, and even the thoughts (the fact that it is not happening in reality, it is only a thought and a feeling in my head is significant here) shatter you to the core?

What do you when you canโ€™t face the consequences of those thoughts?

 

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And that’s how …#6

I had no time in the morning to even think about all the Mr and Miss’ so as soon as I woke up in the morning I rushed to get ready and woke my brother up. Everything planned changed since then. My brother was to come directly today but he surprised me yesterday and so everything has to be rescheduled.

 

I could have flown home right after I completed my work but I stayed only to be with my brother. Today, his college scheduled an interview for him and he has been really tensed regarding it and hence I had decided to be with him on this day. The interview was at 11 but the tensed me dragged him to the office atย 10:30.

 

We were already impatient and restless byย 11 o’ clock. Still we remained seated hoping only we would get it done with. All the Mr and Miss’ were at home chit chatting, waiting for us. Time ticked by and our restlessness increased by every second.

11:30….

12:00…….

12:30……..

1:30…………

2:30…………..

3:00… and the interviewer called him in.

 

Waiting for so long had already drained our energy and patience. All we wanted then, was to get it done with. And as soon as we were done with it, we rushed home. The interview had lasted only 15 minutes but had taken us our entire morning to mid day. I mean does someone even realise how much patience it must have required to wait for so, soo long? I mean, 4 hours. What happened to all the value being given to time?

 

Anyways after this long tiresome event, we went home and ate something. It was a really exhausting day and there had been no time to even think of all the unwanted matters.

 

In the evening all of us, Mr. R, my brother and everyone else decided to travel another two hours westwards, to Miss R’s place. And this was the thing that I was trying to avoid.

 

But I think I had to deal with it.

 

We reached her place by 9 and were greeted, real pleasingly. Her parents were waiting for us, and I being honest I can never believe their hospitality.

 

And that’s how I realised that it was time I left things behind now.